I mean, (have I mentioned this in my last post?) I felt like I was the only one that held him back. He was all hyped up about Canada. Well, it was a good school and all, but I could tell that, even though he was kind of excited about going to a totally cool school in Canada, he was actually worried about me and, like me, he was scared that we would.. change- or um our feelings for each other would change since we would be faaaar away from each other.. same thang.
That is not happening anymore, though. So school pretty much won't be that different this year: he will be there to see me in the morning every day at school; he will be there waiting for me outside my classrooms; he will always walk me to the bus stop after school on the days we can't hang out (when we are busy and stuff); he will graduate from my school; and he will definitely (we've talked about this, lol.) go to prom with me.
But still, I know he's kinda disappointed. Really, that school was just too great. If my parents were not mind paying like thousands of dollars for high school, I would be going there now, lol (or I would prolly be in Japan right now). Moreover, he really has to study real hard so he can get into a good college; or even better: go to Boston University with me. I seriously love that school. Like, I fell in love with that school a while ago lol. I reaaaaally want to go there. And it will be really awesome if my boyfriend can go there too! I am, however, considering University of Maryland (and most likely he's gonna go there) as my second choice. Since it is close to home and they have a lot of scholarships for in-state incoming freshman, it'll be way cheaper than going to BU. I wouldn't stress my parents out too much, i guess :P.
Anyway, school starts in 2 weeks and I am somewhat excited. It's my senior year in high school and I do hope it will be a good year. I promised myself that I would do better this year, 'cause I really need to. And since my bf is staying here, I know I will be less stressed out. If he was in Canada, I would probably be like all distracted all day at school thinking about how long it was until he came back for winter, spring, and summer breaks.
Hmm that's it for now. I've been really tired lately because of work and marching/color guard practices. So I'm gonna go to bed now. Cya~
Labels: babble, bf, BU, canada, college, excited, not moving, senior year, tired, UMD
